I'm being emotionally abused by my step?

Okay you need to never try suicide again! You need to live on and have a full life and experience things and have children and love them the way you want to be loved! Your life is way too precious to end! With that being said...maybe you could go talk to a therapist...it might help. I have had an abusive father my whole life. For as long as I can remember he has been abusive. I just have hung in there and kept my head up. Things will get better believe me!! Eventually you will be able to move out and things will get better!!